Ruins of my heart…

I was never skilled at building

But I had bricks of love and care

I laid them one upon another

Tried so hard to build it strong

It withstood tempests, violent

And rage of deadly quakes

I thought we all made it solid enough

Poor heart! It didn’t have an inkling

That a single blow could break down

What years took to build

That ties of friendship

could ever become a burden

That memories can turn to be

Doorway to intense torment

I look at the fallen bricks,

Of love and affection

Debased and dishonoured, the bricks

Affected with mosses, look at me

The building is no more

Nor the emotions, so pure

Ruins adorn each one’s mind

The strings have broken

Despite all my efforts

Pretension has become our defence mechanism

Haunted by the times so good

Each memory perishes never to return


Hey there, how are you all doing?

I had written this poem a few months ago, out of sadness when I was having trouble with my friends.

As you all might be following, I changed my school in class 11 and my old friend circle was clearly divided into two, when I left, as if I was the glue that held them together. I had maintained a steady contact with all of the five people but they didn’t talk much with each other and it was no one’s fault.

Maybe the division had happened quite a long time ago, but most of the things are not visible at the apparent level, just like people can really seem happy on the outside but can be dieing inside.

The day before yesterday, I lost a friend. Well, it would be best put if I say that she lost me because I was willing to move on and let go of all the things that happened, but she wasn’t ready to do so. I wouldn’t explain everything that happened because it is too complex, it’s just that I made a mistake(I hurt someone else unintentionally and I was NOT the only one at fault) and I apologized.

Who doesn’t make mistakes in their lifetime? But the actual problem was not with her and she was quarreling with me unnecessarily. I tried to take that lightly to let it pass but day by day she became more and more accusing and dominating. She complicated things up. She held on to every word I ever said and interpret it in her own way and asked for explanations. Everyone was willing to move on except her. I felt suffocated. I was held accountable for things I didn’t mean. I just couldn’t go on.

I prioritized myself and my mental peace. I am not afraid of losing toxic people for the sake of myself. Once,I was too weak to let people go and I used to compromise to make them stay because I barely have a handful of friends, but not anymore. I think, I am better without her. The last days with her was so depressing.She was obsessed with the past which I wanted to let go.

Don’t you think, at times, we should let things go and move on?

The fact that it hurts so much is because she used to be very close, once,we were even best friends.

I don’t know what this feeling is. I didn’t know that letting people go is so tough. While I know this happened for the best, but I feel so sad at the turn of events.

The memories flash across my mind and all the possibilities that could have happened (but are impossible now) are most difficult to bear.

It was kind of a mutual decision to break friendship but I didn’t want this to happen.

I wish she could understand but now I am too concerned about myself to care. Somewhere I am happy…

It’s better to not have a friend than to have one who holds on to problems and doesn’t stand up by your side at your low times.

Anyway, thank you for reading. I couldn’t help sharing this with you all 😊


If you want to share any suggestion, opinion or feelings with me, please fell free to do so in the comment section.

©Tryst with mind

You can never reach me!

You are a living nightmare,

Corpses line your fence

You stink of stale blood

That you gashed out of me,

Invisible in your wicked hands

Like all the crimes you commit.

You twist my soul

And break my bones

Stab the same wound time and again

You relish at the sight

Of the thick red liquid

Oozing out of my dignity.

You think you can bury your sins

You think its deep down

And nobody knows

But it all comes around

At the dead of the night

I’ll be your nightmare now.

You dentured my body

But you can never reach my mind

Several facets cover me

Pain is routine now

It is what makes me feel alive

Motivates me to bounce back and break free!


Hello, so I am back after so many days. I hope you all are doing well!😊

Recently I read a book which inspired me to write the above poem.

The idea is mainly about people in our society who commit numerous heinous crimes and still get away with it because they have the most coveted, money and power. They exploit and ruin innocents and don’t feel a single ounce of guilt, not that I expect them to feel, anyway, because they are hardly humans. The book was actually adult fiction dealing with one of the most inhuman crimes that ever existed, sex trafficking (and unlike the popular prejudiced opinions about adult fiction, it was actually an inspirational book and also was a good love story) but I wrote the poem in general, pointing towards all the crimes that I see around us and in the papers every morning, including the hidden crimes of marital rape and domestic abuse.

So now, it’s time to become their nightmares and not be subjugated anymore.

This is also the result of occasional inspiration between a tiring schedule. I have my first unit tests from the second week of next month and I am already so tired of the text books and the projects 😬

Nevertheless, you can share any thought, suggestion or opinion with me in the comment section 😊

Thank you for reading

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The Sunshine Blogger Award! #5 and 6

Hi, how are you all?

So, here I am with my next award post and I am really sorry that I have to post two nominations together.

Thank you so much for all the love and support you all give me. I just want you all to know that I am grateful. I have really improved so much over these few months, only because you all, my dear readers and fellow bloggers. Keep supporting me like this😊

I have been nominated by two very beautiful souls and amazing bloggers indeed.

I am honoured that Miss Vanilla from Vanilla’s blog has nominated me for this award. Please do visit her blog (Click here)

Thank you so much dear☺️

The Sunshine Blogger Award is a peer recognition award for bloggers who inspire readers by promoting positivity and bringing joy.


RULES

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you
  • Answer the 11 questions asked
  • Nominate 11 bloggers and ask them 11 questions
  • List the rules and display the logo of the award
  • Notify the nominees

The questions

1. What inspired you to start writing?

Now, that you mention, I don’t really know. Reading has really inspired me. I used to read a lot when I was small and I wanted to write like the authors and I remember I wrote my first stupid story when I was in class 5, or 11 years old. My parents and some friends also motivate me.

2. How long can you spend with your writing skill in a day?

You mean writing anything? Yeah, then whole day except some time to relax and take a walk perhaps.

3. Themes or ideas you mainly choose to write about?

I think most of my pieces are on emotions. Be it love, anger or any other.

4. Who encourages you the most?

My few close friends

5. The most important goal of your life?

I want to make my parents proud of me and of course happy.

6. Favourite movie.

Okay, it’s tough because I am not really a movie-watcher but yeah I can say Moana and The Lion King of disney. Also Avengers series (all of them) I also like many Hindi films like 3 idiots and Taare Zameen par but there will be a long list then.

7. View regarding life from your own experience.

I have been through ups and doen and I have come to realise that perspective matters. I have learnt to look at the brighter side and hold on and smile no matter what. There maybe times when you can’t take it anymore, but I am always tempted to see what I can do and what lays beyond the sufferings. Happiness is a choice and never to hurt or break trust of someone who loves you unconditionally.

8. What is the biggest challenge you face while blogging?

I want to improve myself and post the best content I can give. So this isa challenge for me. And yes, time is one too.

9. Who do you look up to more than anyone?

My father

10. What was your greatest failure and what did you learn from it?

I have failed a lot but they were small failures, not that great, and almost all are related with academics like how I became 5th in my school in class 10th boards when I had dreamt of being 1st. I have learnt to let past be in past and move forward. Life is bigger than that. Also I have failed in keeping my promises which I have made note never to repeat.

11. Tell me about your proudest achievement.

I don’t think I have yet achieved anything to be proud of. But yeah, I was still proud of being 5th in my school and winning 1st prize in essay writing and all. Maybe proudest was when I received so much appreciation for my writings in WordPress 😊


I am so much happy that a great friend of mine and a fellow amazing blogger, Priya, from Zealous Homo sapiens nominated me for the same.

She writes excellent poems and quotes. I love her blog. Do visit her (Click here)

Thank you so much Priya❤️

Rules are the same so I will get to the questions straight.

The Questions

1. When did you publish your first post?

24th August 2018.

2. What is inspiration to you?

Inspiration is a positive feeling which makes us strive harder to achieve what we want or explore ourselves to see what we are capable of.

3. What are you too hard on yourself for?

I always try to be perfect and finish all my work beautifully with precision, being a procrastinator, it just gets difficult 😅 I get stressed easily.

4. What makes you nervous?

Public speaking or when I have to express something in front of many people.

5. What makes you feel special?

When someone shares something with me which they don’t say to anyone or considers me close to them, and keep notes of the little details.

6. If your life was a novel, what would the title be?

Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder

7. Who are you closest to? Why?

My family because they know me the best and love me unconditionally.

8. What’s your favourite joke?

I don’t have any particular favourite joke but all friends memes and scenes makes me laugh instantly 😂

9. What’s your most used phrase?

“It’s okay” 😂

10. What did you learn a little too late?

That you should ( or I should) always think about the priorities before doing anything.

11. Tell me a six words story.

Okay, I have wanted to write one for a long time.. so here it is

“She adorned her grave with roses”

I am not nominating anyone. Everyone deserves the award and anyone willing can claim the award and write a post on it. You can choose any questions from the interesting ones above.

Thank you for reading 😊

Quote me!

I am very much honoured to receive two nominations for “3.2.1 Quote me!” 😊

Two very talented bloggers have nominated me and due to lack of time, I am posting it together.


Attitude

I was nominated by Tushara, my very dear blogger friend, a long time ago. She is versatile and has a great blog. Do give her a visit and you will love her (click here to go to her blog)


RULES

Thank the selector

Post two quotes for the topic

Select three bloggers to take part in the same


My selected quotes

1. If you can’t change your fate, change your attitude

– Amy Tan

2. Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character

– Albert Einstein


Expression

I was nominated by Subham, a great blogger. He has an amazing blog. Do give him a visit (Click here)

There are same rules, so I will move on to the quotes. I could try to write some of mine and post them later maybe.

My selected quotes

1. If we don’t believe in freedom of expression for people we despise, we don’t believe in it at all

– Noam Chomsky

2. Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways

-Sigmund Freud

So, I kind of wrote the quotes on expression from two perspectives. One is the Freedom of speech and expression which is an important fundamental right in Indian Constitution and many others as well. It is a basic right given to everyone now and is associated with one’s dignity.I wanted to write the quote which moved me the most, one of Voltaire’s but there is much controversy about it and people say that he actually didn’t say any such thing that’s why I didn’t include it. But you all can have a look and see for yourself.

The quote states “I do not agree with what you have to say but I will defend to the death your right to say it”

Freedom of speech and expression is intrinsic to human existence. We have been blessed with a brain and we have the power to think so we should have the right to express. The instances in human history, where people were denied such a fundamental right of human existence is a blot on the pages of glory.

The second quote is about unexpressed or repressed emotions.

I am not nominating anyone to participate in 3.2.1 Quote me, but anyone who is reading can post their own favourite quotes😊


So this is it.

Do share your thoughts with me. Thank you for reading ☺️

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Echo

My soul reeks of your smell

Fenced with your ashes

Inept, I try to forget

Attached, I try abandon

My soul reeks of love

Years after,

I fell in love with the memories

again


So now, I am surrounded with text books but I do get inspired once in a while, actually more and words form in my mind of their own, so I write them down.

They may not make much sense but I think I would let you all decide.

I thought award posts consecutively would make my blog boring, so this is just a change of taste😁

These are just scribbles which portray (or tried to) that one can never get rid of the memories.

Tell me how is it.

Thanks for reading😃

The Sunshine Blogger Award! #4

Hello
my passionate readers and bloggers, so for a few days my posts are going to be mainly award posts, so you all will be going to know a great deal about me😁

Hoping that I don’t scare you all away, let’s get ready for the ride, shall we?


I was nominated by Rupali S Banerjee. Her blog is “Reflections of life” which really lives up to its name, for she successfully shows us glimpses of the wonderful gift of life.

Thank you dear, for nominating me☺️
If you haven’t followed her yet, please do give her a visit (Click here to go to her blog)

RULES

Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog
List the rules and display the logo


Answer the 11 questions asked

Nominate 11 blogs and notify them

Ask them 11 questions

My response to the questions


1. What is the best thing about writing?

According to me, the best thing about writing is the flow of emotions. You actually start understanding your heart and mind and your own emotions and feelings if you cast them into words, if not completely, then to some extent. Moreover, the satisfaction after writing is something out of the world☺️

2. What kind of stuff do you like writing?

I usually write fiction and poems mostly on emotions. But I have written some articles too and I want to write about everything that catches my attention or demands my creativity.

3. Who is your favourite author, poet, writer?

My favourite is Agatha Christie whose books offer me a shelter in my difficult times. Rabindranath Thakur is also my favourite writer and I could name a dozen writers and poets who follow close like Paulo Coelho, Cecelia Ahern, O. Henry, Charles Dickens, Gabriel Garcia Marquez,Amitav Ghosh etc

4. Which is your favourite book?

This is the most difficult question in the world😅
But then, you know my favourite book, yes, it’s The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. There are many books following very close like The Kiterunner, Love in the Time of Cholera, And Then There Were None,PS I love you etc.




5. What do you look for in people?

I just want to find a good person. I always try to find the goodness but well, there are certain parameters as well. I like people who are kind, knowledgeable,sincere and ambitious and of course real.  Maybe the word good would do😂

6. What is the best thing you like in nature?

I like nature, I can’t choose what’s the best, but perhaps it’s the connection I feel, the very beauty and the equilibrium which teaches everyone about life. I always feel enthrallled at the wonders of nature.

7. Which one do you like more, mountains or sea?

Mountains.

8. How did you deal with stress?

Good question to a bad person😅 I am the last person you would ask, but whenever I am stressed I try to take a break and enjoy for sometime, things which I love and then eventually, slowly get back to work.

9.  What is your say on gender bias?

I think men and women are scientifically or biologically perhaps, different but socially they are the same. We can’t see them any differently and assign them ‘social’ roles based on their ‘biological’ differences. I stand on equality and any discrimination with any gender just makes me very angry.

10. What is the importance of creativity in life?

Creativity makes the otherwise dull and monotonous life, colourful☺️

11. How do you see yourself ten years hence?

I still don’t know what I will do after ten years or what friends will remain, but I know that I will be happy.


Okay, I am writing some questions down that just came to my mind

1. If you could be any character of a movie, book or tv series, who would you be and why?

2. Would you rather be jack of all trades or master of one?

3. What is ‘home’ to you?

4. What’s your opinion on second chances?

5. Describe a perfect day.

6. Does being rich and famous appeal to you?

7. Do you want people to know you or do you want to stay anonymous?

8. What’s your favourite Disney animated movie?

9. Who’s your favourite villain?

10. DC or Marvel?

11. What is the  best thing about blogging?


My nominations

Huguette(My emotional fingerprint)

Lyndsey(The Happy Book Blog)

Lillian(Orkidedatter)

Chiru(Inspire and change)

Priya(Zealous Homo sapiens)

Charlotte(The inspired page)

Fragrant flowers and recipes

Riya(AestheticGraphy)

Tanusri Sen(With nature-Tanusri r chokhe)

Post card from life lately

Nour Lee(Leaving behind a trace)



Well, so again needless to say, anyone out there reading this post can claim the award and receive it because you all deserve it, yes 😊

So have fun and keep smiling ❤️










The Sunshine Blogger Award! #3

Well, I am so happy. Awards boost my confidence and I start working extra hard when I find kind people acknowledging and appreciating me.

I am very grateful, really ☺️

I was nominated by Rubeena Faisal. She is really an amazing blogger and a kind and supportive friend. Visit her blog and I know you all will love her (Click here)


RULES


Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog

List the rules and display the logo

Answer 11 questions

Nominate 11 blogs and notify them

Ask them 11 questions


Now, the questions!


1. Name the two qualities a blogger should have, according to you.

A blogger should be serious about his/her work and be kind to the audience or readers, along with some other qualities, according to me.

2. A social incident that shook your head and heart so far?

Any incident of violence and terror shakes my head and heart. Basically, every morning I eat my breakfast shaken up to read the news these days 😔 Specifically the recent incident that pained me was the Pulwama attack.

3.Name any two of your favourite books that you recommend to others.

This is so tough 😣
But okay, two books that really touched me are
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho and The Kite runner by Khaled Hosseini

4. If you could change your nationality which one will you select and why?

I don’t think I want to change, but can I go to Mars? Then yes😂😂
But to be honest,any country is okay as long as I am happy.

5. Any place you are dieing to visit for a long time?

The whole world!

Yeah😂

6. Your favourite spot?

Spot as in tourist spot? I am sorry I may interpret this question a little wrong. If you ask for a tourist spot in Kolkata, there are plenty or if in India, then Darjeeling or mountains of Kashmir, Himachal Pradesh or Sikkim even Ooty.. (I may not stop then!)


7. Watching a movie or reading a book, which one do you prefer?

Reading, always. I am not a movie-watcher kind😁

8. Two of your favourite quotes.

Okay.. And here’s the second one

From The Alchemist

I love other quotes as well but well, these are one of them

9. Two adventurous things to do in your bucket list.

I want to travel the whole world and sleep in a tent in a wide open field maybe on top of a hill and look at the stars( I don’t even know if such a place exists)
I have stayed in a tent before but it was not an open field.
Anyway, I also want to try paragliding though it scares me a bit😅

10. Name any two famous personality whom you would like to inspire.

I don’t think I would like to inspire anyone, right now, I have lots to do in my own life.

11. Your favourite cartoon character.

Oswald is my favourite cartoon character ☺️


Okay, so this is it. Thank you for reading and please share your thoughts in the comment section.

I am not nominating anyone, but obviously, anyone as in anyone, can receive this award and answer the same questions (I am sorry, I am a little behind in time and well, a little lazy) Everyone works hard here and deserve the awards😊😊

Happy blogging 💖

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